1. |
Chaos
04:33
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Why is it when I’ve got it so good, so good
That I want everything to go all wrong
And why is it that I want you so bad, so bad
Like I knew it had to be us all along
I sabotage myself the best
I'll ruin this like all the rest
Nice things can't make it in mayhem
This isn’t old news baby
Why am I staring at the back of your neck again
Ooh I thought I’d learned by now
But I’m still out here seeking chaos
This isn’t old news baby
Tempted by the way you squint your eyes when you laugh at me
Ooh should I resist or no
Cause I’m still out here seeking chaos
Is it time for a changing of the tides?
Well besides I always get so bored without a change
Once in awhile
It's not to say that it's easy to ignore
The part of me who's foot is in the door
But honestly you're the only reason I'm not sure
I sabotage myself the best
I'll ruin this like all the rest
Nice things can't make it in mayhem
This isn’t old news baby
Why am I staring at the back of your neck again
Ooh I thought I’d learned by now
But I’m still out here seeking chaos
This isn’t old news baby
The corners of your smile turn up and tell me i’m yours again
Ooh I can't resist no more
But I’m still out here seeking chaos
I want the life in my mind
Cause there's consequences outside
But is it right to hide
Two obsessions at the same time
This isn’t old news baby
Why am I staring at the back of your neck again
Ooh I thought I’d learned by now
But I’m still out here seeking chaos
This isn't old news baby
Drawn to make the same mistakes over and over again
Oh I'm wearing myself out
You know I'm out here seeking chaos
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2. |
The Moment
03:36
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You came
Around again and
Walked through
My mind again and I can’t stand
What you do to me I’m
Running in circles
Empty
Empty-minded you fill up the space
Owning your space again
Why is it always bout you
It’s like the moment you want me
The moment I hear you
In this head space
I'm a head case
How do you keep me here
Somehow you know
When you've lost me
And you bring me right back here
I'm there
In your mind again and
You can't
Can't resist again and it's not fair
Blaming it all on you
You had me
Oh you had me and you have me still
Why can't we just let go
Don't you want to let go?
It's like the moment I want you
The moment you hear me
In this head space
I'm a head case
How do you keep me here
Somehow you know
When you've lost me
And you bring me right back here
I loved oh but did I
Did you, did we
Did you mean that
Were you what you said you
Was that true or did you
Mean that
Did you feel that
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3. |
Fool
02:45
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Sucked in, again
Even though I know better
Tell me is it worth the hours
talking you down,
saying you’re a go getter?
Use me like a bandaid
Cause you’re too afraid
To face the "you" that you made
I-I-I-I-I’m running out of empathy
Cause the way you abuse me
Isn’t worth my time
I-I-I-I-I’ve given all that I can
Now I’m taking a stand
I refuse to be your
Fool
Your fool
I'm tired
Of your games
I'm not having fun now
I'm telling you I'm used up
Haven't you had enough?
Promised I wouldn't fade
Tell me how's it feel
To self-sabotage your way to lonely
Know you'll try to blame me but my conscience is clear
Know I'll try to change you knowing you'll never hear
I-I-I-I-I’m running out of empathy
Cause the way you abuse me
Isn’t worth my time
I-I-I-I-I’ve given all that I can
Now I’m taking a stand
I refuse to be your
Fool
Your fool
I-I-I-I-I’m running out of empathy
Cause the way you abuse me
Isn’t worth my time
I-I-I-I-I’m doing all that I can
Now I’m taking a stand
I refuse to be your
Fool
Your fool
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4. |
France Ave
04:09
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Hold my breath and count to ten
Maybe then, maybe then
Never thought I'd want more or different
Never thought laughs would make a difference
I don't want to play it safe
And walk along France avenue afraid
Oh and comfortable is not enough
I'll never settle on a me that's strange
This "us" doesn't move me anymore
And I know you feel me pull away
Don't act like you're surprised and
I'm stuck
Stuck between the place I am and where I'll be
And he won't leave
I've held your heart with me so long
It fit so well in my right pocket
I hope to God that you'll be strong
And understand it isn't wrong to want
To build a tower taller than my fear
With you not here and know I'm fine
To feel that we don't fit enough
Not giving up but not wasting our time
This "us" doesn't move me anymore
And I know you feel me pull away
Don't act like you're surprised and
I'm stuck
Stuck between the place I am and where I'll be
And he won't leave
He's living rent free in my brain
Don't care if that makes me insane
I'm not throwing it all away
You know it'd be worse if I stayed
I don't want to make a rash decision
But my livin' isn't through
Oh and you deserve someone who isn't
Looking for a whole lot more to do
Am I crazy or are his fingers crossed just like mine
Have I lost it or should we let them go and intertwine
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5. |
mess we left
00:47
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Thought that we'd see it coming
I could have softened the blow
Had I let you know
If only I'd known it sooner
We could have spent our last days
Learning separate ways
All in all I hope
You're better for the next
Look at me as fondly as you do the rest
One day you'll see the mess we left
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6. |
Weakness
02:49
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After all this time it
Doesn't make sense that I
Thought I needed to respond, no
Every time that I
Thought that I'd lose touch
You find me
The same as I always am
Thought that I'd stop pining
I'd stop whining about things you never said
Let's open up that wound again
That's not so much a wound but more of a weakness
I don't even know you
But I know I would try again
Any day you ask me to
I would try again with you
You make me weak
What does that mean
Is it wrong to want to know you?
You are ever present
You can't hide behind
The thinly veiled façade of fear
You claim to feel
Baby you can't fool me
After all this time we know that I can read you like
The script I wrote myself
Can't remember why
Or when or how did I give you permission
To stick around
You make me revert
Dig up a version of a me I used to be
When I let you in the driver's seat
Thought that we were lovers
Thought we messed up
The wrong place and wrong time
But were you right for me
Despite the voice inside
That told us to mess it up
I don't even know you
But I know I would try again
Any day you ask me to
I would try again with you
You're part of why I'm where I'm at
I hate that you keep me in check
Loosen up your grip on me
Or baby you know we'll keep sinking
You make me weak
What does that mean?
Is it wrong to want to know you?
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7. |
Control
03:21
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Try to tie me down
Try to make me feel like you should be around
Try to make me squirm
Try to make me feel like I will never learn
I'm the lunatic
Try to make that stick
Try to tell me I'm the one who's sick
I'm the crazy one
You're the one who's done
I have come undone
I can't let you control what I do
Cause I'm not doing any of this for you
I won't let you control what I do
Cause babe my life now it does not concern you
So I'm not
Tied to what you say or think or know or do
Not you
So you thought
Making messes would lead me right back to you
But we're through
Try to spread your lies
Try to realize your words are a disguise
(Try try to spread your lies, your words are a disguise)
Try to come to terms
Try to know you're not the only one who's hurt
(You're not the only one, you've got to come to terms
I am hurting too
Let me hurt with you
Try to see it's true
I'm not the crazy one
I'm the one who's done
I won't come undone
So I'm not
Tied to what you say or think or know or do
Not you
So you thought
Making messes would lead me right back to you
But we're through
I can't let you control what I do
Cause I'm not doing any of this for you
I won't let you control what I do
Cause babe my life now it does not concern you
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8. |
The Coffee Song
03:32
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Leftover coffee
Sitting on my desk
All of my later's
Leaving a big mess
And I've been so stuck
I've been in a rut
But leftover coffee
Isn't the worst thing
There's hair in the shower
Clogging up my drain
In another hour
I'm fed up with my brain
And I've been alright
No, not all the time
But hair in the shower
Isn't the worst thing
All the things I put off
Never really go away do they
And it comes at the cost
Of a girl who's really lost her way
And can't you give yourself a break
Oh you know that's what my mom would say
Take it easy on yourself
Haven’t changed my sheets
In probably 3 weeks
But how can you blame me
When leaving my bed's a "reach"
And I feel so stuck
I'm still this rut
But can't we all forgive some dirty sheets
I slept through my meeting
And called you by the wrong first name
I keep on repeating
Everything that makes me lame
And I've been okay
Like I always say
But it's just one meeting, right?
All the things I put off
Never really go away do they
And it comes at the cost
Of a girl who's really lost her way
And can't you give yourself a break
Oh you know that's what my mom would say
Take it easy on yourself
Take it easy on yourself, girl
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9. |
leftover coffee grounds
00:29
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Can somebody help me
Can't someone just lend a hand
I want you can see me
Need someone to understand
It's not just a rut
I feel so messed up
I feel so messed up
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10. |
Do The Damn Thing
02:59
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And she knows that you don't forgive easy
And she shows just how patient she can be
While you stand running hands through your hair
But she tries
Tries to pick up the pieces while you cry
Cause you don't want to do this
Cause it's hard
But you're standing in her front yard
Will you go through with it
Shut up or do the damn thing
You either end up at square one or you put on a ring
Won't you make up your mind
And you hate that a part of you wishes that she'd die
In some strange freak accident
Cause you don't want to tell her how you feel
But she knows
Yeah she's starting to catch on, but she hopes
that she still glimmers brightly in your eyes
But you don't see a thing
Will you go through with it
Shut up or do the damn thing
You either end up at square one or you put on a ring
At some point it's easy to hold onto something you know
Gets harder and harder to know when it's time to let go
Won't you make up your mind
Can't you just get a spine
You can't be what you want
If you keep her on the line
I'm sorry that I kept you close (Won't you make up your mind)
I should have known to let you go (Can't you just get a spine)
I thought if I gave it more time (You can't be what you want)
I figured I'd remember why (If you keep her on the line)
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11. |
like a bee sting
00:20
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12. |
Summer Fling
03:05
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The summer breeze blows through my hair
And you’re right there
I smell the salty ocean air
And you’re right there
Every time I turn a corner in my mind
You’re right behind
I see some of you oh everywhere I go
I know It’s kind of a lot
But it’s not
Not yet
If I could spread my wings
Then maybe this would be more than a summer
Right now it’s just a thing
But maybe it could be more than a summer
Don’t need no wedding ring but
Baby could this be more than a summer fling
More than a summer fling
Kisses by the campfire would be dear
But you’re not here
I hope I haven’t disappeared
'Cause I’m right here
I don’t want to cause a fuss
I just want to discuss the two of us
Summer makes for short-lived love
But I want more
So much more
If I could spread my wings
Then maybe this would be more than a summer
Right now it’s just a thing
But maybe it could be more than a summer
Don’t need no wedding ring but
Baby could this be more than a summer fling
More than a summer fling
More than a summer fling
More than a summer fling
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13. |
Rug Burns
03:44
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All you do is make a mess out of me
All you say is can you stay
I'm the kind of person to hold on to tattered fragments of
The rug you wouldn't let me weave without your pretty fingers on the loom
All we know is how to hurt ourselves
All I say is that I want to get away
And you're the kind of person to pull all of my ends loose and leave me
Tangled up and mangled while you rest your pretty fingers on the loom
Who would have guessed that something so soft could burn like you?
How can I hold you close when nothing hurts like you do?
Who would have thought the strings that tied us could be so loose?
Just look at the rug burns you left on me
What's your excuse?
I'll call you in the morning
All you know
Is how to test my love
And all I say is can you not push me away
And I'm the kind of person who just can't say no to people like you
Use me as your doormat and make sure to slam the door right in my face
Who would have guessed that something so soft could burn like you?
How can I hold you close when nothing hurts like you do?
Who would have thought the strings that tied us could be so loose?
Just look at the rug burns you left on me
What's your excuse?
I'll call you in the morning
I'll call you in the morning
When the bruises start to heal
The many times I've let you win
I don't know how to feel
I thought that we were on the mend
But all the rules you'll always bend, and
Not all friendships have to end
But it's so hard to be your friend
Oh, who would have guessed that something so soft could burn like you?
How can I hold you close when nothing hurts like you do?
Who would have thought the strings that tied us could be so loose?
Just look at the rug burns you left on me
What's your excuse?
Just look at the rug burns you left on me
What's your excuse?
Just look at the rug burns you left on me
What's your excuse?
I'll call you in the morning
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14. |
anterograde
00:47
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In a constant state of disarray
Filled with feelings I can't put away
It's not your fault are words I'll never say
I thought I'd learned how to be less afraid
The things I tell myself feel like a blade
I shouldn't ask you to be my first aid
It's like I gave myself anterograde
But my anxiety is so passé
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15. |
Panic
02:57
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I hear your voice in every song I write
Telling me no
That it doesn't sound right
It’s tingling all around my frontal lobe
I think I might explode
Don’t feel like myself no more
No more
I need it all to stop
The swarm
It’s warm
Then cools off on the spot
My chest
I rest
But you won’t go away
You stay
I’m waiting for change
I see your face in every window pane
Saying “go home
You can’t be out here alone
You always need an exit strategy
When you’re with me”
I can’t take it no more
No more
The tension in my mind
Release
A piece
Oh when will I be fine
No I
Can’t breathe
Oh why can’t I calm down
Oh silly me
I’ve done it again
And if I start to panic (God help me)
'Cause this train is off the rails
And if I start to panic (I’m a goner)
'Cause I can’t come down from here
At night’s the worst when you get hold of me
Just let me sleep
What did I ever do to you
Oh boy she’s fighting with herself again
And they’re all listenin’
But can they really hear me scream
Inside
The echoes in my head
I’m fine
I swear
Just need to go to bed
Relax
Just breathe
Just count from one to ten
I'm fine
I’m stuck here again
And if I start to panic (God help me)
'Cause this train is off the rails
And if I start to panic (I’m a goner)
'Cause I can’t come down from here
It’s a whirlwind
Swimming in my brain I’m gonna drown
I’m hurting
To the naked eye it’s not around
Am I hiding
It well enough to convince you all
I’m fine
I’m fine
I’m not fine
Cause if I start to panic
Will you be there
Or will I scare you away
Yeah if I start to panic
Will I make it
Through another anxious day
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Corzine Minneapolis, Minnesota
Born and raised in Minneapolis, Hayley Lewis (Corzine), first started writing songs on the ukulele and piano at the age of
15 and has blossomed into a full-time performer.
Drawing Influences from such artists as Orla Gartland, dodie, Sara Bareilles, Ingrid Michaelson, LEON, Hayley Williams, and other powerful female vocalists, Corzine's style could be described as indie rock.
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